Friday 20 August 2010

Forgive & Forget

We humans always love to believe the best about ourselves & feel that we do not possess any thing in us that can be considered unacceptable in general or in our own view as well. Even if we do something like that, we always give OURSELVES (more than others) a reason to support our actions (which we may not accept for the others in the same situation)

Similarly, I too have been living with the kind of belief that I do not do anything bad/ wrong....I have always had & still have faith in the justice that God has always done for me. I know that I am God's beloved child & hence He always take care of my wishes & my happiness, but somewhere something was making me think today if I have started taking this for granted?

I always was aware that I can never forgive & forget but I have believed in God's justice. Me being his favorite kid, I never had to be worried about my revenge as God takes care of it... What I now have come to realize is that all that I have been doing is, still living for revenge. I am simply more than happy to let God take the revenge for me rather than me having to get my hands dirty in doing that. This awakening made me realize that I have been storing up all these negative feelings inside of me which I very ignorantly believed I do not possess. I have been storing up pain, hatred & revenge all through & that has been the reason I was happy with God punishing them.

What I want now is to be able to forgive. This feeling of hatred, which I THOUGHT, I do not possess, is not good for me. I do not care what it does to others but it for sure doesn't let me be happy & content. I want to be able to forget so that no thing and no one has the power to bother me anymore & want to be able to forgive so that I do not burn in my fury of revenge.

1 comment:

  1. Candid and lucid.....I must say young lady!! However, I always believed otherwise since my childhood, in particular since college days. I always knew as to where I went wrong and always accepted so to myself as well as in front of very few close to heart and never had any shame or guilt in doing so.......and what I have seen that forgiveness does not comes from compulsions of accepting things, rather accepting with free will!!

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